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“I don’t usually talk about this, but I feel so alone.”
These raw words from a mum resonate deeply with many who know the isolating and often silent battle of postpartum mental health struggles. This is a story about postpartum depression with psychosis—a story about a mother whose experience doesn’t fit the “happy” motherhood ideal, a journey where joy is tangled up with uncertainty, fear, and moments that don’t feel real.
Her TikTok video captures her emotional journey, giving voice to the struggle of not being able to trust her own mind. As one mum responded, “You’re not alone. I know what it’s like to feel lost in the middle of it all.”
Imagine bringing new life into the world, only to find yourself questioning the reality of every moment. This mum describes feeling as though she’s constantly on edge, unable to trust her perceptions. She’s left wondering if what she’s seeing or experiencing is real or a hallucination—a fear that keeps her trapped in her own mind.
Postpartum psychosis is rare but can make mothers feel like strangers to themselves. One mum shared her empathy, saying, “I know the feeling. It’s as if you’re living in a fog, and you’re terrified of what’s real and what isn’t.” In these words, we see the loneliness and exhaustion that come with navigating life in this blurred mental space, where she questions her thoughts and experiences, never quite sure where her mind might lead her next.
This battle between real and imagined fears can be especially tough for mothers in postpartum depression with psychosis, as they’re often scared of reaching out or being misunderstood. Another mother commented, “It’s a vicious cycle of fear and isolation. You’re scared to say what’s really going on in case it only makes things worse.”
In the midst of this fog, she seeks answers—turning to doctors, medications, and mental health professionals. Yet, the uncertainty of a clear diagnosis only adds to her anxiety. Is this postpartum psychosis, or could it be a more permanent mental illness? There’s hope that her condition may ease as her hormones stabilise, but there’s also the terrifying possibility that it might linger, unyielding. The unknown is a weight she bears, one that no mother should carry alone.
One mum commented, “Not knowing is sometimes the hardest part. I remember asking myself over and over if I would ever feel normal again.” It’s a fear that many mums have quietly wrestled with. As much as the outside world celebrates a new baby, the hidden struggle for mothers facing postpartum mental health challenges often goes unrecognised. Another mum added, “Every day feels like a question mark. Will I get better, or is this the new normal?” Her words echo the fears that haunt mums experiencing postpartum psychosis, a journey defined by uncertainty.
This mother’s video is a brave act of reaching out, hoping to connect with others who understand. In the middle of this postpartum journey, she finds herself questioning her own worth, expressing feelings of guilt and self-blame, wondering, “Did I do something to deserve this?” Her words remind us of the way mothers often internalise their struggles, feeling like they must have done something wrong to face such challenges.
One mum responded compassionately, saying, “You did nothing to deserve this. I know how easy it is to feel like you’ve somehow caused it, but postpartum depression and psychosis aren’t your fault.” Comments like these can be a lifeline to mothers like her, reminding her that she’s not alone in her pain and uncertainty. Another mum shared, “I felt this way, too, like maybe it was karma or something. But mental health struggles aren’t a punishment.” For mothers experiencing postpartum psychosis, understanding and connection from others can be a source of hope and healing.
The hardest part for many mothers with postpartum psychosis is the possibility of not finding lasting relief. Even though she’s on medication and working with doctors, she worries whether this will ever truly end. She longs for a day when she can believe that her mind is her own again. But in her darkest moments, she reaches out, seeking reassurance. “Will I ever be okay again?” she asks, hoping someone has an answer.
One mother offered gentle words of support: “Healing is slow, and it can feel so lonely. But you’re stronger than you know, and every day you hold on is a day closer to feeling like yourself again.” It’s a powerful reminder that healing isn’t always about a fast recovery; sometimes, it’s about learning to find small moments of relief in the middle of it all.
The responses from other mums reveal a community that exists quietly behind the scenes—a group of women who have walked similar paths, offering comfort and understanding. Another mum commented, “The small steps forward matter, even if they don’t feel like much. You’re still here, and that’s everything.” This message of resilience and shared strength helps to create a space where mothers experiencing postpartum mental health issues feel seen and heard.
At the heart of this journey is her desire to regain control. She’s not only fighting for her mental health but also for her identity as a mother and as a person. Postpartum psychosis may feel like it has taken over her life, but by sharing her story, she’s actively reclaiming her voice.
For many mothers, postpartum depression and psychosis are struggles that demand immense strength, a strength that’s often invisible to those around them. The act of sharing her experience—of saying, “I am here, and I am fighting”—is a reminder of just how resilient mothers can be, even when they feel at their weakest. As one mum shared, “You’re speaking for so many of us. By sharing your truth, you’re helping others find theirs.”
If this story resonates with you or if you know someone who might be walking a similar path, take a moment to visit our blog for more. We need more spaces where mothers can openly discuss postpartum depression and psychosis without judgment. Join the conversation on Instagram, where you’ll find support from a community that truly understands the hidden struggles of motherhood.
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